I really don't know what to do. Was at lost. Just somehow. =/
Started to go blog hopping around again.

Many things ran through my mind, my feelings and opinions. But i just can't say to anyone. I wanted to blog it out. 算了吧! Cause it will be those words that hurts and affect people. Keeping it to myself is also not very comfortable.
Perhaps the only one that i can talk to will be the one that i've know for a very long time.

Now i need to talk. Go somewhere. With someone i am comfortable with. i really need to relax. but i wonder when will it be??? SOON...?

Luckily today eefeng let me play her psp for the whole of co practice. Make my day at least a little better. Cause i only need to concentrate all my energy to that small little thing. Ignore the surrounding.

Seriously i'm not in a good mood now. I can scold people when i'm not feeling good. Especially to those close one. 埋在心里的事实在不好受.
Don't just think that if i smile my mood for today will be a pretty one. Cause i can say most of the time i'm only wearing a smile to entertain people.

Of course, i begin to agree with this song's lyrics. Totally very meaningful. 你是真正的快乐吗？

歌词：歌曲:你不是真正的快乐
歌手:五月天

人群中哭着
你只想变成透明的颜色
你再也不会
梦或痛或心动了
你已经决定了
你已经决定了

你静静忍着
紧紧把昨天在拳心握着
而回忆越是甜
就是越伤人了
越是在手心留下
密密麻麻深深浅浅的刀割

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是
你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了
也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂
关在永远锁上的躯壳

这世界笑了
於是你合群的一起笑了
当生存是规则
不是你的选择
於是你含着眼泪
飘飘荡荡跌跌撞撞的走着

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是
你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了
也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂
关在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯
完全的癒合
我站在你左侧
却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾
一直到老了
然後才後悔着

你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是
你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了
也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂
关在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯
完全的癒合
我站在你左侧
却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾
一直到老了

你值得真正的快乐
你应该脱下
你穿的保护色
为什麽失去了
还要被惩罚呢
能不能就让悲伤
全部结束在此刻
重新开始活着